It is time for change.
My parents have turned my only sister against me. There is only so much I can do to help her understand my situation when she lives with them and is forced to hear them demonize me every single day. To my parents, I have been brainwashed by feminazism to hate family and men. To my parents, I have been brainwashed to think of myself as only a victim. Now, my sister believes these horrible lies too.
I am in a great deal of pain. I feel irrevocably betrayed and cruelly misunderstood. There is no hope for my nuclear family: I have no hope. I cannot reach out to them. And no matter how much I try to remind them that I am a human being, that I require my humanity to be respected, they will not listen. There is nothing I can do for them...
There is nothing I can do for them.
There is nothing I can do for them.
Angelica, remember, that while you cannot do anything for your parents and sister, you can do plenty for yourself: Look inward.
Angelica, you are not alone.
Yes, it is time for change.
I can, and actually have already started, to redefine my own family. As a child my parents told me repeatedly that my maternal grandmother and paternal aunt were vicious, narcissistic women that I should avoid. In recent months I have spoken to them, and now see that my parents' stories were complete lies. I have made friends with these women, and in so doing I have created some semblance of family. Currently, our bonds are still weakened by the way we have all been treated by my parents. So we spend our conversations trying to ease the pain and heal.
I have recently graduated from Colgate University and am now completely on my own. It is very scary, but I'm doing it with some help from friends and family. Change is happening whether I like it or not. I'm in San Diego, California right now working. And will be in New York City in September for more stable work. Indeed, change is happening.
I must remember that I cannot spend my time changing people. They have to do that for themselves. And by that same token, I must remember that I can spend my time changing myself. I can, I really MUST, spend my time on ME. More introspection, more reflection, more work. Blog, get ready for some more action. I created OutLet so that it would be just that, an OutLet. Instead it has become a place where I post very deep and well thought out essays. I want to keep doing that, but if that becomes my standard I'll never write anything else. (And as you see I haven't.) So, I'm going to focus on expelling more of my raw emotions and thoughts.
Let it Out. Let it aaallll OUT!
Angelica, you are not alone.
Yes, it is time for change.
I can, and actually have already started, to redefine my own family. As a child my parents told me repeatedly that my maternal grandmother and paternal aunt were vicious, narcissistic women that I should avoid. In recent months I have spoken to them, and now see that my parents' stories were complete lies. I have made friends with these women, and in so doing I have created some semblance of family. Currently, our bonds are still weakened by the way we have all been treated by my parents. So we spend our conversations trying to ease the pain and heal.
I have recently graduated from Colgate University and am now completely on my own. It is very scary, but I'm doing it with some help from friends and family. Change is happening whether I like it or not. I'm in San Diego, California right now working. And will be in New York City in September for more stable work. Indeed, change is happening.
I must remember that I cannot spend my time changing people. They have to do that for themselves. And by that same token, I must remember that I can spend my time changing myself. I can, I really MUST, spend my time on ME. More introspection, more reflection, more work. Blog, get ready for some more action. I created OutLet so that it would be just that, an OutLet. Instead it has become a place where I post very deep and well thought out essays. I want to keep doing that, but if that becomes my standard I'll never write anything else. (And as you see I haven't.) So, I'm going to focus on expelling more of my raw emotions and thoughts.
Let it Out. Let it aaallll OUT!
